My son Bix tells me that blogs are back. This blog never really went away; I just did.
The odd combination depression and the peculiarities of my personality negated any effort at creativity. I just wanted to sleep; nothing caught my fancy. But ending my brief (1 1/2 years) relationship and getting on more effective meds did the trick. (I think that he ultimately hoped for companionship, while I hoped only for a final romantic adventure. We were both disappointed).
But now blogging is back, my son says. And because mine has never gone away, many of my posts still get read when somebody googles a topic about which I posted. For example, my son recently posted this:
Tfw you’re googling for what was in the Greedy Bastard at Mad Dog in the Fog and on the first page of results is a blog post by my mom referencing one of my own where I talk about heading down to an antiwar protest that I have no memory of attending.
That referenced post of mine was from October 2002. Yup. Once something can be caught by google, it’s there for eternity. It’s one way of getting a feeling of leaving some kind of legacy, I guess.
It’s almost October, and if I look back in this blog, I find that October is when I come to life creatively. I am looking back on my life in general quite a bit these days — finally recognizing the times that I was my own worst enemy.
There is much to write about these days. I wish it were 20 years ago and I could be back with those folks in the old blogging community and get into those ongoing conversations we would have about life, the universe, and everything.
But that’s OK. I’ll just continue here anyway, because when I talk to myself, I tell the truth.